Am I in my feminine energy?

This is a new word for me. Let me give you some context. I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and a half now and before meeting him was single for 6 years.

During those 6 years I barely ever cried, didn’t feel the need to share my emotions with anyone, if I ever felt sad or frustrated I’d just deal with it on my own but rarely cried or got overly emotional. I had little if any anxiety, i mean I have always been an overthinker, but only overthought things like friendship issues or work matters. And would usually be able to pull myself out of it.

I also never needed affection or felt the need to be affectionate to anyone.

Anyways you get the point. Since meeting my boyfriend a 1.5 years ago I have become the opposite of the above.

I think we both love each other pretty equally, he definitely makes me feel that he loves me. I feel that the relationship is pretty solid.

But now I can literally cry over everything. Especially anything to do with him or our relationship.

I feel the need to be close to him all the time either through him messaging me while apart or physical touch. I hate being away from him as well and I used to literally LOVE being alone in my own company.

Sometimes I’ll randomly cry when I’m with him, like a feeling overwhelms me about how in love I am and how I can’t wait to get married.

I have also suddenly developed a desire to look after him. Before this relationship I only cooked for myself and wasn’t overly caring towards anyone else.

Now I feel this constant desire to buy him things or cook for him and look after him when he is sick and just care for him and give him everything he needs or wants.

I have turned into the girl I always cringed at…

I haven’t lost my independence though. I do everything myself, drive my own car, cook myself, buy myself anything I need etc, I am still the provider of my livelihood money-wise.

Just emotionally I am a very changed person.