Over it :(

I guess I’ll be seeing AF tomorrow or sometime this week. Took a test 9dpo Neg and just took one again and both neg. I thought I saw a vvf line on my blue line test but why would it be so faint so close to AF due. Just currently heartbroken because I had a dream just last night where I saw two perfect lines and it felt so real. I’ve been through nausea and acidic reflux since 5dpo along with light cramping on and off till 7dpo, never ending lower back pain and gassy since 4 dpo. All stuff that was new for me. I really thought this was it :(