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When you’re in a relationship I’ve discovered that sometimes when you meet a man, it becomes about not staying, but trying to remove yourself to find better peace.

I would rather not stay with a person who decides that I’m not worth anything. A man who tells me that I’m not good enough just because he has his own fantasies about what he thinks love is.

He thinks is about blunt trauma and heartbreak, and trying to make me feel all the pain I could ever feel. Sometimes I wonder if he enjoys terrorising women.

I’ve decided that I would rather find another man who can tell me the things I want to hear, rather than feeling like he is buying me for his satisfaction and then moves on to the next woman. It doesn’t sound consensual or normal.

So why would it be about staying? Who would stay with a man who wants you to feel feelings just so he can feel happier with himself? Him and his friends don’t really have normal feelings, some claim they have none. So they told me I have feelings that are invalid. That’s just not normal. I feel everything in the world. I feel loss, grief, love and heartache. I would rather hear the things I want whispered to me than what he whispers to other women in front of me.