No friends club

I miss having friends. I’m a mom of two I have an 8 year old and I just had my second and probably last baby in December 23’. I’m going thru post partum I feel ugly and gross. I miss fun. My man is very low key very chill and we barely speak to each other unless we’re watching a show or movie. It’s VDAY and I’m just not feeling it at all. We haven’t spoken to each yet today because he’s sick and I feel too many emotions right now I feel I’m annoying to him. I feel like I’m having mania episodes more often. I just can’t shake this weird funk I’m in. I’ve had 2 glasses of wine since my youngest was born. I feel like I need a couple glasses tonight like should dress nice make myself look nice and try to enjoy the rest of my night.