How do I try to love my self ??

I have 0% conference with my self I hate my body fat as I'm around 15 Stone in weight I've had 9 baby's 6 section 3 normal so I have a really bad hangover 😞 I'm not one to walk up an do my self up with make-up an hair as I just wake up an that's mother day for me but I have been thinking I wanna try to love my self an have more confidence in my self or even when I'm taking a picture I hate it how can I change the way I feel ???