Confidence gone

Feeling fat and uglier than I ever felt in life post partum. I tired to dye my hair the color I always dye it and it just looks disgusting. I use box dye in the shade black brown. I look like an old person trying to cover their grey hairs and I don’t even have any….im turning 30 this year…I’ve always had messed up teeth so it’s like I have nothing going for myself. I cringe when my bf touches me. Especially in the light. Like ewwwwww I’ve never wanted to crawl out of my own skin this badly.