Anyone else impatient?

TW: Rant and mentions of miscarriages 5 years. 5 years we have beent trying 4 miscarriages all from genetic abnormalities. We have finally scrapped the money together to start IVF. I did the blood test they want, it is in the range they want it to be in, so I felt some happiness that I could start the medicine but no. They want me to repeat it "because you might ovulate on your own". I have not ovulated on my own in the 5 years they have been treating me why do they still hold on to hope for natural ovulation when I have been essentially their case study for 5 years and have never. I will endure what I must and I know a blood test seems so small but 5 years and every obstacle imagineable, it just got to me today. I just have been patient for a long time and today that repeat blood test seems like the biggest most irritating thing.