advice welcome TW: weight loss/ed

So since last year i have last 65lbs- I was on a steady curve of being overweight my whole life- and was at 220 when i started loosing weight. i dont really remember the start of me loosing weight- i started eating in smaller portions and eventually my stomach would get full easier. So much to the point where i would be a few bites in after not eating beforehand and would already be full- noticing this i would not force myself to continue eating as it would create a nausea; i would just wait a bit and then eat more. I have had to eat in small portions like this since last year- I am actively trying not to develop an eating disorder by purposefully eating but I do not get hungry very often and when i do eat i feel guilty and start overthinking (which probably contributes to the full feeling).

People’s reactions to me loosing weight has also taken is toll on me as well. Family members and some friends/aquantinces and flat out strangers who dont know anything about me have congratulated me. It inspired (not good) some of my family to loose weight themselves which makes me feel bad.

I do not currently have an end goal- i dont really have an accurate perception of what would be a healthy weight (im 19- 5’7 1/2). I want to start working out/ doing something active (besides my walking) but i am incredibly hard to motivate- i am a horrible procrastinator so i push it off as well.

The goal of the post ig as well as rant as i havent really talked much in depth about my dealing with the weight loss- is a response from anybody who has had to get reused to their body/ deal with anything i have; whether it be advice or just letting me know im not alone and that we can hope for the best together lol