Well guys I’m 36 and pregnant. Per my app I’m 6 days and 5 days pregnant. After going into pre term labor back in 2015 and losing my son. I find my self in utter shock, fear and honestly depressed. I had made peace with possibly never being pregnant or having a child and now I’m sick to my stomach that I will lose this pregnancy somehow.

Every ache, pee, gas even nausea scare me. I’m terrified that my body will fail me. I can’t fathom having to see the face of my beloved having to console me because my body failed. I feel like I will never be able to fully enjoy pregnancy. I’m scared that I can protect the one thing in the world I’ve wanted the most.

I have an appointment tomorrow with my ob/gyn to check how everything is. But honestly I’m terrified of what they will say.