I’ve been i a relationship with my bf for 3 years he has bpd and ocd whenever we get in to arguments they always get physical he puts me down say’s I’ll never find anyone how I’m unlovable I know he is gaslighting me i was in a five year abusive relationship before this, guess its just my luck with guys. But he’s two different people i want to leave but he’s controlling i have two little kids. He has financially rinsed me and even though its my house he won’t leave I don’t think I’d even be safe here if he did.

He blames what he does on his bpd i don’t know if thats an excuse hes always the victim but hes the one locking me in rooms taking my phone wont let me have friends. He messages friends or exs i had years ago in arguments giving them sh*it he breaks my things. Rips my clothes off in argument. Gets knifes out and threatens to kill people. We went on holiday the other weekend and he went out drinking when it was supposed to be our first family holiday he came back pissed and took my phone, he saw a message where i had apologised to someone he messaged with abusive content, all i said was i’m sorry he messaged this my bf has a jealousy complex so because he went out he wanted to make it out like i was the problem

I have lost track of the amount of times he’s hurt/ raped me