I honestly don’t know how you SAHMs do it?!

I’m currently 27 weeks pregnant with my third child. I haven’t had a baby in almost more then 5 years. I was a stay at home mom with my first two and I just remember how depressed I was with them. Plus I was young and my SO was young so he couldn’t keep a job for nothing.

So when my kids got old enough I went back into the working world and my SO had to stay home due to not having anyone to watch the kids.

Now that I’ve been working and providing and understanding how all this works it’s so hard for me to go back to being a stay at home mom. When my SO was a SAHD he constantly let the house go wouldn’t do dishes for weeks etc. But now that I’m the SAHM I am trying for the life of me to keep up with everything and keep everything clean. And it just feels impossible!! My SO don’t clean up after himself most the time and my kids are obviously kids, but I’m trying to teach them to clean up after themselves. It’s just hard and I don’t understand how you ladies do it. Honestly, I feel uncontrollably depressed because of the environment that I’m living in. And when I asked my significant other for help, he states that he works he pays the bills and if this is my job now.. but what I don’t understand is he works eight hours a day and I have to work 24 every single day?! Without anyone helping me… I literally feel like a single parent and right now that’s what I want to be. I don’t want to be in a relationship like this. If I’m going to feel alone, I will be alone.