fired from my job/feeling worthless

I was just started to get my life on track. I was just feeling healthier, setting new goals, about to put a down payment on a new car as a late bday gift to myself (#23) and Friday afternoon I got fired. I’m at my ex house currently bc I’m honestly embarrassed to be around family right now. I feel like everytime I take an L everyone’s looking at me. I already cried my life away but now I feel a sense of emptiness & I don’t know what to do :( I just hope I can learn from my fuck ups and be given the grace to be employed in a decent amount of time so I can prove myself wrong. I don’t wanna keep thinking I’m a worthless screw up bc I don’t feel like I am, but I feel like that’s what my behavior gives and it’s just so suffocating.