I need prayers

Jasmine

I’ve been struggling with lust. I’ve prayed & ask God to deliver me. I have 2 children & I was in a really bad relationship for about 2 years with my ex. & during that time I wanted to be married to him we even talked about it but I just knew it wasn’t meant to be we were also trying to have a baby. Well me & him didn’t end up not working out he ended up incarcerated. The entire time we were together I didn’t conceive a child, which I’m thankful for now that I look back over my situation. It seems like I still haven’t learned my lesson. Now I found myself in another situation where I’m now pregnant by a man that’s married. I didn’t know at first he was married. I’ve never done anything like this never even thought about it. It’s totally out of my character. & I know better. Is this my punishment for going outside of God Will? & also having sex without being married? I don’t believe in abortions. But this is also an embarrassment & shameful situation not only to myself but the people that are involved & im so remorseful for what I’ve done. I wasn’t trying to get pregnant. Although I knew the consequences. I’m so ashamed right now. Not only have I conceived a child from this but I’ve committed adultery. & I don’t know if I can take this. I’ve been crying ever since I’ve found out. I pray God forgives me.