Told guy no but he still stuck it in

I was drunk and he was too. He was cute to me. I was in his bed to sleep only as my friend was in the other bed drunk asleep too. He kept asking to stick it in I kept saying no.. I fell asleep and I wake up to him inside of me. I woke up but I’m not going to lie it felt good and I almost came (I haven’t had relations in a while), but it just felt wrong because I told him no. Also he did it RAW

I even grabbed his hand out (he was fingering me too) and when I grabbed his hand to pull it out he was using so much force to stay in like it was hard for me to pull his arm. I’d fall asleep after getting him out and kept waking up to him inside of me (fingers and his D)

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I feel really bad & guilty because my ex has been begging for me back and I went and did this. Should I tell my ex? We have been hanging out recently and I want to get back with him.