TW: attempted suicide

My husband tried to commit suicide late Friday night (technically Saturday)

He had his 🔫 to his temple and when he pulled the trigger he hit a pothole and it jerked his hand and the bullet grazed his forehead and went out the car window.

He’s been in the hospital since the cops finally located him and has been moved to the psych unit since yesterday.

I don’t know how to handle this. He’s in there but he’s refusing help. He talks to the psychiatrist only because he has to but he’s being short with them. He’s refusing to take depression medication. The cops said he can have his gun back when he gets out which baffles me.

Every time I talk to him on the phone he wants me to act like nothing happened. I’m not questioning him or anything but when I start to cry (because hitting a pothole literally saved his life) he gets angry and says stop feeling sorry for me and that he’s fine. He won’t take calls from anyone but me because he doesn’t wanna have to explain himself, which I get. But all of his family is worried about him which he seems angry about. I don’t know what he expects us to act like. Like we obviously aren’t gunna pretend it didn’t happen, he could be dead right now.

He’s saying he’s not going to therapy when he gets out. Refusing meds. Wants to start carrying his gun again (he has a CPL), and go right back to normal. I’m just baffled and idk how to navigate this.

Has someone else gone through this with someone? I’m lost.

I’ve spent the last 3 days taking care of our 4 year old and 1 year old alone trying to figure out how to pay our bills so he doesn’t have to stress while he’s there and my dad is helping us out just for him to bite my head off for worrying about him when we talk.

I’m scared for his future. I’m anxious. I’m sad, angry, everything. Any advice?