He tells me this when he’s drunk.

My bf has a bad alcohol problem. Here’s the thing, he would hate alcohol. All of sudden be drinks a lot after work. He says it’s not alcoholism or dependency.

Well we got into an argument 3 months ago (I know a whole while back)

We got verbally agressive. Then I said something stupid like “I’m sure someone else will appreciate me, a man that will actually respect me…”

He got so offended (which I get) and he said “stupid bitch you and your men…hope you die in a car accident bitch or a truck runs you over and lose your miserable legs. I’ll be celebrating your death at your funeral”

i forgave him because he made it seem what i said was equally as bad and bc he was drunk.

well 3 months later i cant get those words out of my head..

i know this sounds bad but sometimes we we are in the middle of having sex and i see him and feel disgust ….