Am I crazy?

Edited with new pic from this morning. Still not much color, but definitely more visible than yesterday afternoon.

And I didn’t take it apart!

Why are these expensive tests doing me like thisssss?

9 DPO today. First morning urine test was a cheapy and clearly negative. Midday, I took a clear blue early detection and at the 5 minute mark, I could very faintly see a line, but couldn’t capture it in a picture and while I really feel like it was pink, I’m not positive. Here’s where the crazy part comes in…

I took the test apart. My husband says he can’t see it, but I definitely can, not sure about color though. What do y’all think?

Also, 2 Natalist ovulation tests today had barely visible test lines. I have 3 boys, have had 2 miscarriages and have been trying for over 2 years.

I feel guilty for being upset because I know there are so many wonderful people who have struggled to even have 1 child, and I am very grateful for the ones I have.