Miscarriage is already a “suffer in silence” sort of pain. But has anyone with multiple children ever experienced the loneliness that comes with miscarriage that comes after you’ve had multiple successful pregnancies?!

I’ve miscarried at 12 weeks and am devastated. However, we were waiting for this appointment to tell most friends and family, so now I sit with this pain in mostly solitude. I almost wish we had told more people about the pregnancy, so that the people closest in my life would understand my withdrawn and sad affect while I go through this, nearly alone. The biggest problem being, that I already have four healthy boys. People automatically dismiss my loss based upon the fact that I should just feel blessed for what I have.

My heart absolutely shatters for the moms that are experiencing loss(es) while trying to conceive their first child. I aknowledge that that is possibly a different level of pain. But now I sit here as a Mom of multiple children and feel invalidated in my sadness for the loss of my fifth child. I am supposed to not be sad, because I have multiple other children. It’s utter isolation and loneliness for a baby that was deeply wanted and desired. I feel so alone.