I am so frustrated!! I am 37 weeks and yesterday I had a visit with my Dr. half way through he said so last time you only got to 4-5 cm…looked at me and asked how big baby was and I said 6.14oz and he looked at me again and said baby wouldn’t fit. Expecting me to say something. Like he was concerned or insinuating another c section because I didn’t progress fast enough…My water broke 38 +4 and I had a c section because they told me baby’s heart rate was dropping after 15 hours after admission and he ended up the having cord wrapped around his neck & leg. (Went in 3pm and baby was here at 5am).

I am trying for a VBAC this time around and dr is aware obviously of my chart and everything that happened since he was the one to deliver and at this point I want to throw him out the window. Towards the end of the appointment he was like “I don’t want to persuade you into thinking one way but just trying to keep you open minded in case it doesn’t go as planned”. And WHY couldn’t he just start off with that?? 😡

This time around I really hope my water doesn’t break so I can get through contractions at home and hopefully dilate as much as I can before I head to the hospital. I’m keeping an open mind. It’s just really getting to my head after yesterday and I shouldn’t let it but it is. Any advice, words of encouragement or questions are welcome.