I planned to have my baby.. I am 23 years old I wanted to get off birth control & have my body back with no extra hormones in me & being ready for whatever it comes with not being on it. Now that my sons here we have been going through finance problems mid pregnancy.. & my business didn’t go the way I wanted to have the ability to control my schedule around my boyfriends. And now I have to go to work and depend on family to watch the baby.. I am feeling so defeated. I am grateful & thankful but man do I feel silly .. and the fomo I have missing out on my baby is so severe & not to mention I had my 6 week check up today & they mentioned a lot how easily I can get pregnant again so out of fear and worry due to the predicament I’m in I had them put it in AGAIN. Am I going against what I believed in & not trusting god or am I being responsible? Ughh . & not to mention I’m not a fan of my boyfriend family AT ALL.. and I just found that out too.. I definitely feel so selfish.. I know my son deserves better .. but I also know I needed my son as much as he needs me… I know everything will work itself out but I am going threw a lot of what ifs & I don’t like it at all .. I’ve always been so confident in my decisions..