Guess I just need to vent. Maybe I am disrespectful? I just had a baby and we have a 3 year old. I of course have some days where the laundry needs to be folded on the couch or the boys room has toys everywhere that need picked up. But for the most part I have the house clean, laundry done, all meals made to where I make my husbands plate when he gets home from work. IF he decides to come home because a lot of nights he does whatever he wants to do after he gets off. We didn’t even see him but for an hour all day Saturday this weekend and he didn’t call or text all day. He left before we woke up and was home to eat dinner and then he left until midnight. I make homemade meals- sourdough bread, homemade desserts, pasta you name it. Occasionally there is dishes in the sink from me making so much food- I also bake for a farmstand I have :) he says it’s disrespectful for them to be in the sink. amongst also pumping every 2-3 hours. I strictly pump… latching didn’t work for us.

I was telling my husband today (since he hasn’t touched, kissed or anything with me in weeks) that his comments of what I eat or how much I eat (even at his parents house he’s done this), and his comments of how my boobs are gross really make me feel horrible about myself. He said do you want me to tell you the truth of how I see you or sugar coat it? Plus you keep saying you want to lose weight. I’m 10 weeks pp and I’m trying 🥺 I actually weigh less than I did when I got pregnant with our second. But between all the porn he watches, him looking up girls on fb, only fans and his comments and lack of being home.. I’m just feeling really ugly and like I’m never ever enough. I don’t have a support system.. hardly any friends with no lack of trying on my part. Ugh