I 20 (f) and my fiancé 22 (M) ..

( yes I know it’s hard to stop watching I’ve struggled but I bypast )

I have a issue with his addiction on porn he agreed that he won’t do it again due to only “ wanting “ me Ect I do know it’s an addiction but I feel betrayed that he keeps lying to me about it I’ve never felt so alone I feel like I’m the only one trying in this engagement.. he tells me not to over react but in out eyes mine and his eyes believe watching looking up porn is considered cyber cheating but why does he do it ?.

He even says it’s like cheating ( in my eyes I can see how it is looking at people in the nude then touching ur self )

I don’t know how to convince him to stop because I again I feel betrayed by him because he’s jacking off to other women .. who are prettier and I’m like “ am I not good enough ?”

And he said “ you are enough it’s just one round wasn’t enough for me “

So basically he waited for I was asleep to do it …

Betrayal.. right ..

I asked him “ do you just want sex form me “ and he said “ no I love you and I want a kid together “ but why does he treat me this way .?

He always puts his friends first before mine when I always put him first ( like he takes them out ) ( his friends are male dw )

I just don’t know what to do because he always threatens to sleep outside when I have anxiety over a small thing and I’m like I can’t express my feeling to him anymore