I’m in a complete daze aunt flow is late so gingerly made myself take a test this morning and after a few minutes of waiting I looked and boom their she was a positive 🙈 I’m speechless of course this is a blessing but I was not prepared for this and this wasn’t planned i always joked about the “what if we had another” but after 5 having 4 babies I was definitely finished I didn’t want anymore especially as my youngest was a prem baby in the Nicu and I needed up getting postpartum depression which wasn’t fun although she is the light of my life she was also my most traumatic experience going back on it and I honestly can’t be put through that again.

So at the moment I’m just in shock and scared. Especially because I know that Im going to get judged. I recently moved so not near my support network and I was just about to go back to work 😭

But I know it’ll calm down and I’ll be over the moon because what is more or a blessing then a baby.