Gender disappointment

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I love my baby more than anything but after finding out our 4th and final baby is a boy feels like a smack to the face. I never felt like this with my 3 previous boys but All ive wanted is a girl and noing this is my final baby kinda hurts. My baby wont be loved anyless and i couldnt be more grateful for a healthy baby up to now I just feel guilty and wrong for feeling like this :/