I’m mid 30s with four children and I’m questioning my sexuality. Is this normal? Maybe a mid life crisis?

I have been in a past abusive relationship and my husband now is an asshole to be blunt.

I’ve always found woman to be more attractive than men. The older I get, the more I long for a kind and understanding human being. I have kissed girls in high school, but it was more for attention, I think. I have watched lesbian porn, but doesn’t every woman?

I don’t know. I got my makeup done by a girl who I found funny, attractive, and admirable. I couldn’t stop thinking about her and I’m married to a man.

What is wrong here?