Not feeling great about this pregnancy

Hi All,

7.6 wks today and this is baby #2 and I have a beautiful 5 yr old. It’s been a week and I am having mild bleeding (pink, brown and once red). I do have a small SCH and I did posted my bleeding photos on this group and got some reassuring answers. I had my bloods drawn and HCG came 17000 which was well within range for 6 wks 4 days, that’s what baby was measuring on the ultrasound. Going for HCg testing again tomorrow and praying I’ll have some good numbers. In last ultrasound on Saturday baby had a strong heartbeat (147). So suspecting the bleeding is from SCH. But I don’t know, I am feeling so low and negative about this pregnancy. Every time I go to toilet I wipe blood. I no longer want to go to the toilet, every minute I feel I am gonna miscarry. I am so scared to poop that more blood will come out if I strain. Literally, I don’t feel happy or like myself. I don’t have morning sickness (I was throwing up a lot around this time with my first baby). Whenever I have a slight of cramp I feel as if this is it. Honestly I’ve lost all positivity. Sorry for my long post. I am just feeling very low and since I haven’t told any family or friends about this pregnancy, this group is my safe space ❤️, therefore I am so sorry for the long post.