I'm newly getting into the gym the last few months and lost around 30 lbs. I have a long way to go but I'm trying to build up my strength as I have multiple health issues. I have three kids 5, 3,, 1. I try to get to the gym a couple nights a week. It's hard because I try to only go when the kids are asleep and my husband is home.

Today my oldest I had to pick up from school sick. My middle his preschool shut down because of germs. So I have been carrying for my oldest while trying to occupy the others. I couldn't get to the gym last night because I had to take my dog to the emergency vet.

My husband worked late tonight but when he got home at 7 I asked if I can go. We have the same wake up times but I know I'm going to be awake tonight with sick kid and need some me time. My husband was reluctantly letting me go. I had the kids in pajamas relaxing with TV which they don't normally get so they were fine. The oldest had Tylenol and fever was managed. The dog had his medicine and was sleeping. I had the kitchen cleaned and laundry put away. I had a hot dinner waiting for him. So he had to just tuck in kids to bed which our kids are easy. But he laid on the guilt hard about leaving him with the kids.

He's the sweetest husband ever but he doesn't realize the sacrifices my body has made to have the kids and how my health is a priority. I'm talking I have neurological issues with my heart spine and all my limbs. I have a disease that could cause stroke and heart attack and another that can leave me imobile in a wheelchair. I'm supposed to be in pt but it's too costly so I'm trying to do workouts on my own. I need to be healthy too.

It's so much easier to be lazy or curl up on the couch and I wish I had married someone who motivated me. I'm frustrated. When we met I was the epitome of health and muscle and weight and took eating right and working out as a priority. I'm realizing our behavior as a couple has changed me and I am needing to make me a priority for my health.

How do you manage being the primary parent and taking care of yourself too? Especially when your husband is indifferent about it?