Micro cheating continuing

I don’t know why I couldn’t write anymore on the other post but ok. So like I was saying am not even mad at the lady it’s her life and her profile and she can upload whatever the hell she wants I don’t even know her but it’s supposed I know my husband. So I started getting furious really upset and I was telling him like “ok then why the hell you following the girl” and oh lord he says something like “well it’s not because she’s a cop” I got crazy. Something broke inside me. I felt insufficient and useless and I know my worth it’s not definied by a man but girl I try to give him everything at home like am cheesy and I always make him feel like the only one. He started excusing AGAIN with things like “you never home” which it’s true but I’m never home bc I go to work , I’m a teacher and I just graduated so I work between 2 schools I don’t earn a lot of money right know and he pays almost everything and he was like “you’re not taking care of me” “you leave alone too much” and I’m like yeah but because I go to work I don’t even have a car I have to ask my sisters for a ride so sometimes I depend on their schedule and I cannot always pay a taxi . And I started saying like well if you don’t love me anymore or if you wanna be or try with somebody else just say it I’ll stay out the way and than he goes with the “I’ve never ever cheated on you but what do you want me to do I followed because I saw her but I don’t talk to her I’m not even interested” and again I ask “then why that ain’t even a reason”

Well I am bawling my eyes out rn in the other room because I feel like shit insufficient used and not loved anymore. I feel like I just caught him fucking another girl I know it might sound exaggerating but girl I feel that’s close to happen. I want to leave him, but I can’t , I definitely need therapy . Thanks for reading me