7 weeks

i’m currently 7 weeks pregnant with my third and i’m not wanting to keep this pregnancy. My boyfriend is so excited but i’m afraid I have hyperemisis graviderum again and I cannot do it again. it takes everything from me and it’s the closest to death i’ve ever felt. We would have to travel to a different state to get the abortion. We have already told mine and his family. I would have to say i miscarried. Idek what im looking for in here i just had to write it down for someone to say something. i feel so alone. everyone around me is pro life and he is so excited for a baby but he has even said my HG has started affecting him. i cant get out of bed or take my kids to school or pick them up. i cant do anything without throwing up. i’m miserable. idk what to do