Insensitive comment made by mom

My mom made an insensitive comment about my weight, I’m delaying buying bigger uniforms for my job because I never get the chance to go out and buy them when I’m off. Idk why it just doesn’t happen. Anyway she’s like you need to buy new scrubs they look too tight on you now and you’re getting fat so you need bigger scrubs.

Like wtf I’m trying to go about my normal routine and she says that?? I actually felt like I looked ok until she said that. I mean I guess she’s right but I’m like can you please not comment on my weight gain and what clothes I chose to wear it makes me insecure and she’s like no I’ll say it if I want to. Like she sorta has this manipulative act of thinking things are funny like pointing out my weight gain and says stuff with a chuckle like it’s not a big deal.

It’s difficult because I compare myself to other women like my partners sister and Ik I shouldn’t because she’s a teenager and never had any kids so of course she’s gonna be really skinny but idk I’ve never been stick skinny I got boobs so that’s always stuck out on me. But I get jealous that she’s skinnier than me and I feel like an Oompa Loompa in comparison.

This 2nd pregnancy weight is coming on faster than it did my first time and I’m having trouble dealing with that. I keep thinking of ways to lose the weight after I give birth and feeling impatient to hopefully return back to my small size if that’s even achievable. When I was small I used to only eat one meal a day. It’s sad to maintain my skinny weight I couldn’t even eat 3 meals in one day.

Even my partner makes comments on me going in weight, pregnancy is so hard in this aspect because we’re doing this metamorphosis but it’s literally going against societal body standards when we’re growing a human and yet we are still held to beauty standards non pregnant women are setting . Like yes I’ll definitely have a flat stomach and look thin throughout the entire process despite growing another person. It’s not realistic and people shouldn’t be getting anyone pregnant nor being around pregnant people if they can’t stop judging their looks.

I also am afraid to show off my “bump.” Because I know it’s just my fat pad and bloat my body has created. Not the baby’s body itself so I’m like I’ll just wait until I’m actually for sure showing to wear tight clothing that shows off my stomach.