Resenting my husband

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Husband has been out of work for 4 years. He’s a CNA and we made an agreement that he can go to nursing school without having to work because nursing school is hard. Anyways he has been out of school almost 2 years and he has been studying to take the state boards to be a nurse but he wouldn’t study how he would and make excuses saying he needs a special app to help study (he’s not wrong but they’re other ways to study like YouTube) I kept telling his to watch YouTube videos to study their other ways you can study and a million practice questions but he’d rather be on the game and make excuses so it has put a strain on our relationship and now it seems whenever we fight I would get so mad that I would throw insults at him. I don’t like to but I’m so fed up and I keep communicating with his multiple times now I’m tired of working and that this wasn’t the plan for me to work and pay for everything and that I wanna be home to take care of our daughter (she’s 3) I feel that he does not appreciate me taking care of him and he would make comments like (you make ALOT of money it wouldn’t make sense for me to work) in an travel nurse that makes $4000-5000 a week but I work 4-5 days a week for that. I just feels he’s gotten too comfortable and what makes me mad and he doesn’t appreciate it and whenever I’d come home from work (I drive an hour there and back it’s 40 miles away) and it’s HARS work he would downplay it like (well good you have a job) or say (work is harder at other hospitals your Hospitla isn’t as hectic) I’m fed up because I’m dealing with this plus his moms just HORRIBLE and I feel that he keeps making excuses for her being horrible in general. Idk what to do at this point