At 20 weeks I feel huge…

I’m 20 wks rn and I feel huge. Idk people at work have pointed out im “expanding” and outright asked if I was pregnant and I went to the mirror to see how I looked bc maybe I’d look pregnant but tbh I just look chubbier than before. Like from an outsider view I don’t look pregnant just over weight. I guess you can tell I put weight on around my mid section but it’s horrible like idk why my last pregnancy I didn’t really experience this bad of body dysmorphia.

Maybe towards the end but I feel like that’s when the baby actually took up most of my abdomen. Now it’s up to my mid abdomen I guess and I look heavier than I did before. It’s really horrible ;( I feel like I let myself go even tho im pregnant. I wish I was skinny again but I used to didn’t eat much to be that skinny so it sucks. Now I eat regularly and im gaining weight and it’s noticeable.

Then I see skinny women out and about and it makes me feel insecure. I’m just struggling really with this part of my pregnancy rn ;( like it’s mostly just fat collecting around my abdomen and then I get bloated really bad after I eat and it’s just a horrible mix of everything.