Should I ask for the DV charges to be dropped?

*Please don’t judge me. I’m just scared about court, having to move on, my safety, and letting go of my feelings for him*

I pressed charges on the guy who gave me a concussion a few weeks ago. I did it because I knew it was what I should have done. But from the day it happened on, he told me he was going to kill himself and put me in his note to blame me 100%. He would make me feel bad about him losing his cat, visitation with his daughter, his new job promotion, hiss new house. So, even with pending charges, I tried to stay. But it still was awful. He always questioned how I dressed, who my friends were, wanted to read my phone. He told me he didn’t trust himself to “snap on me one day”, called me an idiot. When he found about the charges, he called me and said “fckkkk your kids, fckkk your family, fckkkk your friends, fckkk you”. He “banned me” from the place he works at down the street from where I live and started to thr23ten me, saying “I promise if you don’t drop the charges much worse will happen to you”. I asked what that meant and he said “Idk but I’m crazy, do you really wanna find out?”. He said hes going to try to ruin any part of my life that he can. Im heavily intimidated by his work influence because we work in the same company but hes higher up and other higher supervisors like his work. I cant afford losing my job because i have a toddler. I tried to go to the food place he works at bc it was midway between where i love and where i drop off my kids for vistation. He spotted me right away and immediately called the cops. Even thought I never said anything to him or anybody else - ordered on the kiosk, took my food, and was going to leave without a single word. The cops told me that court finding out about it wouldn’t be a good look. But he still gave me injuries and admitted to everything in text. Even his suicide threats and such are in regular text. But idk if I should just drop it? I told him i would ask if i even could (the state picked it up). Since I obviously already fucked it up and that way too I don’t have to be scared of what he’ll do in retaliation. He keeps trying to talk to me. Idk what to do