Really struggling with something

So I almost died, took a bunch of pills, made a whole ass list of things for my family to read after I was dead. Fortunately I threw up and called an ambulance so I got help in time. The day after, a few hours before I got discharged I decided I was gonna turn around my life so I called my parents and made the arrangements. I started working out three days a week with my mom, then after a bit I started working out three days with my mom, plus working out after those workouts, on top of working out the rest of the week alone too. I really enjoy working out, I do it just for fun and to better my mental health, or I did… But then I got all these comments “oh wow, you look so good”, “you’re finally taking care of yourself”, “I’m so proud of you”, “I can see you’re slimming down, you look better already”. I now can’t physically get myself to eat properly… I do eat once a day but I feel disgusted with myself when I do so. My brain yells at me that I’m in a calorie deficit, that I’m gonna loose weight this way and that’s good, and it’s like my body has started to listen because I can barely get down the food I do eat. My plan was never to stop eating, I was just going to eat less, just enough to be in a calorie deficit. What do I do? I’m over weight so it’s not like the doctor is going to tell me it’s a bad thing I’m loosing weight, I need help, but I don’t know how to get it. Family and friends are not an option, I said I was worried for my health and they all said I was just doing what was necessary so I could get healthy. I do go to group therapy but I was thinking I need more hands on help.