Deciding when to stop.

For background, my husband and I started trying for our first fall 2018 at 33yo. Had my first miscarriage spring 2019. Pregnant spring 2020 and daughter born Jan 2021. Since then, we’ve tried off and on. Got my first positive since my daughter March 2025 and miscarried last week. We turn 40 this summer. We’ve done rounds and rounds of fertility drugs and IUI but got pregnant the month we were doing nothing.

This loss has broke my heart cause I felt like it was my last chance for another baby. We’ve been talking and want to give it a little longer but can’t keep doing this forever. It’s hard on both of us, our marriage and putting other plans on hold to see what direction this takes us. I need a point in time to say, after this, it wasn’t meant to be. So I told my husband to schedule his vasectomy for September. Gives us 5ish more chances and then close that chapter. I need this clarity of mind and no more hope and depressions.

This is the path I’m on now with and ending in sight one way or another. Hoping to find peace through the pain this journey has brought and joy in the fact that I was able to be a mom to my beautiful daughter.