12 DPO

I'm wanting to test but no way to get a test or gas to go get it . But I keep telling myself longer is better as when I can get a test I should be starting on the 12 th this month anyway so I'll see see if I start probably will my breast hurts and that's what I do for a few days before I start my period. I'm wanting to be pregnant but been put on clomid 50 mg and it's working just prayers for my husband with his age . I'm 42 he 63 yeah I know but I love him . All that matters. He's got 16 kids 3 sets of triplets and me myself have had 4 miscarriage in the past. Prayers that I get my rainbow baby. Baby dust to you all including myself. It's going to be painful because I got rods all in my back and I'll probably have to be put to sleep because they can't give a uperdul with rods in your back have to put you to sleep and do C-section. Yes it's risky on me but to me it's worth it when I see my baby.