Starting to lose hope this cycle

I'm either 10-11dpo today, and all my tests (strips, ClearBlue, and FRER) have all been stark negatives so far. Rationally, I know it's still kind of early, and I've never had a bfp before 12dpo but I'm seeing all these youtube videos of dark bfps at 7, 8, or 9 dpo, and mine don't even have squinters! Idk, I feel like I had a textbook cycle with perfectly timed BD, good opks, too, but I think if i were pregnant, it would have at least have a hint of a squinter! Idk, I just needed to vent, cuz hubby just doesn't understand? Sorry for the pity party! Im just disapointed

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