Am I making the right decision (divorce)

I’m scared. This is so absolutely terrifying.

My husband and I have kids together and I am so scared about how to handle not having them with me.

This is a long time coming. My husband and I hate each other. On a daily basis he insults me. He insults my postpartum body, he insults my paychecks, he insults the decisions I make. There is no love. We are miserable.

But I often wonder if when it is all said and done if I will be sitting at my place, alone, when my kids are with their dad, thinking that I should have just put up with it. I should have just sucked it up for 18 years and then left after the kids moved out.