stressed about post partum

i’m not stressed about giving birth or having to get up with my baby all through the night. i’m not stressed about breast feeding or diaper changes. i’m not stressed about my husband going back to work or taking care of a new born alone. but i AM stressed about everybody wanting to meet her. call me selfish but i wish i could stay pregnant forever and just keep her to myself. i don’t need people to hold my baby for me or feed her or change her for me. i don’t want visitors at the hospital or as soon as we get home. i don’t mind sharing her at all with my husband or even my family but i’m having so much anxiety about my in laws. not all of them but some. mainly my mil and sil. they’ve treated me like shit honestly. they have no respect for boundaries and i’m DREADING the fact that we’ll be living 5 mins away from them and they’ll probably show up unannounced all the time. she makes comments like “oh i can’t wait to kiss my baby” even after i’ve said nobody will kiss MY baby numerous times. she literally exposed us to covid multiple times. sometimes i feel bad for the way i feel but i can’t help it. people say “accept the help you’ll need it !” but holding my baby is not helpful to me. if i need help with anything it’ll be staying on top of the dishes, laundry, general house cleaning, etc. i literally want to cry thinking about being forced to share her with them once she’s born