New mom in the middle of a storm

I’m a young mother who just recently had a baby on March. The same day of my birthday, crazy right? It’s been almost two months and I’m always wondering what my life will look like in the future.

Although I’ve got family and a partner who check on me from time to time, most of the time I feel lonely…

I knew motherhood would be really difficult, but I wasn’t ready for the psychological effect it had on me.

I don’t feel like myself. I’ve find it hard to recognize and describe my own feelings. I’ve been sad and anxious. Days fly by and I am desperate because I am not enjoying the newborn stage as I hoped. I just feel like I’m living trapped on a loop.

I know maybe things won’t be like this forever, but really, the only reason I’m writing this is to seek support, maybe make some new friends, hear that I am not the only one who goes through this.

Did anyone feel the same way in their early postpartum?