Just to vent

I really didn’t want to get back on the app on 2/20/2023 I found out that my baby heart stop beating. I was 9 weeks. At 6 weeks and 2 days I seen it. And to go back for a check up and the baby grew but it’s heart stopped hurt. Leading up to that date before I was on the app following everything hoping everything would go good. I would be reading other post seeing how some also miscarried and I would look like I hope that doesn’t happen to me.that was my 4th miscarriage and when I tell you I am defeated…I am defeated. Im currently going through labs and testing. I did get the fetus checked after I decided to do a d&e procedure. She was missing a x chromosome and that test also let me know it was a girl. I really don’t kno what to do I can’t keep hearing when it’s your time. Especially from people who were due around the same time like nooo I don’t want to hear that. Please just need some good thoughts and words of encouragement. Cause I kno some went through more than me. I just want to kno how did you maintain the mindset like yeah I’m gon do this again without that voice telling you it’s not going to happen.