I’m in the UK. My husband told me that some things I mentioned to him three years ago, which he’s been trying to forget and “forgive me” for, broke and devastated him. He’s put on SO much weight as a result and has been miserable, but really trying to be happy with me. He wishes I never told him. We need to part ways.

I have no friends, I have no family. I only have him and my baby in my life. My mother and brother committed fraud whilst I was stuck abroad due to Covid and impersonated me, accruing £40,000 debt in my name, which I’m still trying to sort out, and transferring all my money into their account/s. I have nothing in life.

Everyday, for three years, I’ve thought I should kill myself, but keep thinking it’d devastate my husband so I should find a better time. He assures me he loves me. Gets optimistic and happy and I believe it. But then it goes away. I’m tempted to swallow those small lithium batteries.

I disclosed past trauma and past relationships to him when we were courting, and whilst courting, and my mother, who I was close with at the time, was discussing past relationships etc with him behind my back.

He acknowledges and often says “we didn’t know each other back when you made those choices/mistakes so let’s move on.” However, three years on, we’ve not been able to move on. I want him to be happy, and it’s clear it isn’t with me. I’m scared he’ll turn around in 20 years, when we’ve made a home and a family, and say the same thing and be regretful and sad.

How do we part. Why don’t I get to be with the love of my life for longer than the few months I spent so happy with him ☹️