My anxiety is coming back of 5 years ago💔

So i had bad anxiety 5 years ago.. i was single, alone, no kids, homebody, no friends etc. i had anxiety ever since i was in junior high of 6th grade/7th grade.. when i was in 6th grade they told me to get on medication and never again will i get on that medication i feel like it made me worse… but now i am 28 gunna be 29.. i have 2 babies 2 year old and a 1 year old. A boyfriend. I have been stressed out due to my baby daddy/boyfriend.. we been having lots of problems… and also im stressed of my kids too as i had them back to back😭 so this is what is making my anxiety go up .. really bad .. i can control but its to the point where im overwhelmed and cant be unstressed… also im taking new hyperthyroidism medication for the 1st time of my life/ nexaplon birth control/ postpartum 😂idk how im surviving rn. Tbh i kinda want a anxieties medicine but im scared… on how will i feel and what to take that works.. someone help me