COLPOSCOPY!!!!! HELP (abnormal pap)

Hi everyone this is my second time I have an abnormal Pap smear, this doctor said this time came back high risk (idk how you figure that out) anyways the first time I got a colposcopy i was in so much pain (I was NOT prepared) this time (new doctor) I asked for any pain medicine relief he said they don’t provide that for this.. anyone PLEASE, any suggestions for the pain????

Back story- I was molested when I was a child, took me years to have intercourse with my first love. Pap smears give me anxiety. I’m not sure if this has to do with it but I’m already getting anxiety, my appointment is tomorrow 10AM.

My bf suggested I take CBD (my mom there in law has cancer so she takes this) would this even help???? I’m so scared, I know this needs to be done.. anyone have any suggestions??? Thank you