I lost my 4 year old cat to a horrible accident. It was so unexpected and left me in shock. I have never lost anyone before in my family and this little angel was everything to me. I am going through various emotions and one of them is guilt and blame. I blame myself for not taking care of her properly or not knowing instantly that she was horribly hurt. There were no external marks and she acted fine for a day. When we took her, it was too late. It's been more than a week and I instantly feel guilty when I eat something nice or have a moment of peace or joy. I feel I don't deserve it. I was a bad mother to her. I burst into tears every now and then and it is hindering my day to day life. Everyone wants me to get over it as if she was just an animal. She was my everything. My beautiful baby. I failed her.