I was saved maybe about three years ago. Before that, I was in an abusive and manipulative relationship and just at an awful place in life. To say God saved my life would be an under statement, he completely flipped my life upside down and I dedicated my whole life to him. After that I started dating my now wonderful fiancé. He has always been a strong believer also but lately he has been slipping in his faith as he puts it. We have had a few lapses in judgement and had premarital sex. It happens maybe every few months and both of us always really regret it, we apologize to each-other and then we pray and ask God for forgiveness. I hate the way it makes me feel because it makes me feel farther away from God. My fiancé and I are really trying different methods to flee from it. I never initiate it, but sometimes it’s too hard for me to say no or push him away when he comes onto me really hard. We have about five months left until the wedding. I really want to not do this and to strengthen my faith and restore my relationship with Christ, I don’t want to be backslidden anymore. I hope and pray that God forgives me and my fiancé, I am so concerned he is not going to forgive me because we have struggled with this so long. I really would appreciate maybe some encouragement or advice from anyone who has been in a similar place? Thank you