I love my family with all my heart! But there's days I just can't stand my brother to the point I want to ghost him out for a LONG TIME mentally. I grew up adopted with my sisters, my lovely adopted mom (RIP🌹) and my older brother adopted me and my sisters when we were toddler/infants. My brother also acted like the "father" figure in my life helping my mom with us as needed. Love him for that every day of my life but it seems like after she passed all this extra pressure was put on my shoulders (I was 19 when she passed, currently 29). Long story short both my sisters(I'm a twin but I also have an older sister by 3 years) have some form of mental illness (twin with autism, and older sis with se**l a**se). I knew once my mom passed I would be taking care of someone for the rest of my life. While at her funeral I basically numbed myself, saying hello to not be rude but also trying to keep my composure around others. Then this family comes in that I never seen before in my life! It's actually my brother's family that I never knew he had with a baby momma(we'll call BM for the rest of the story). My brother is head of household while I helped on the side with essentials which seemed fair to me since I know he wants to pass down the house to me at some point. Eventually, My brother and I split the bills equally as I rushed to get my first job and learning to drive with my then boyfriend(now my husband ☺️❤️) while balancing college. After my older sister moved out and my twin and I got a system going between us, life seemed to settle. However, as the years went down, I noticed my brother was letting more family and friends visit often or stay at the house for short periods of time. I didn't mind them at first, my family was pretty open about helping one another.

But then it got to some really ridiculous points especially as I got closer to my wedding last year. Sadly my brother had a stroke a couple years before my wedding and was on an extensive waiting list for surgery till he finally got in. At the same time, BM was moving down to where I was and was going to be a roommate for about a week before she settled in(she ended up losing her house and it took 6 grueling months till she found another). My brother was heading to surgery while all this went down so I bared with it. BM was a horrible roommate. She would act nice around me but then would be bothering my brother while he's trying to rest from his surgery behind my back spreading lies! Like I would make HUGE pots of food to make sure she was included, but then she wouldn't like what I made and wouldn't tell me what she wanted. Then she would call my brother saying I didn't feed her. She was a mess. It was to a point my brother tried to cancel my wedding that I originally wanted to do a backyard wedding at my own house! (Ended up changing venue later on but still!)

So after she finally leaves, life goes on and I start to get settled again. Now, my husband and I are trying to get our own family life going and here comes my nephew (my brother's wife's child, older than me) and his younger brother coming to live with me because they did something stupid to where he lost his job and fighting with his wife who lives in a different state with his child. My brother has yet to tell me what they did. He wants them out as soon as possible, but I feel like he shouldn't have let them in in the first place! They luckily got jobs right away but I'm sick of them already!

They can drive but they have no cars so my husband and I are being chauffeurs everyday with little to no break in between since everyone works at different hours of the day. I already have to take my twin to work now it's more gas. I convinced them to carpool to work early so less driving on my part but there's other little things they do that just get on my nerves and I'm just stuck with it without giving an opinion or voice on the matter. They use MY food to make HUGE meals after I already cooked for the house late at night EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. I'm waiting on them to pay me soon as their first paycheck comes in, but I already want them out of my house but I can't say a damn thing. I really don't want to go through all this stress again. My car is old, my brother knows it yet I still have an obligation to drive them everywhere and since they've been here my car had broken down twice. I know it's a sign I need to drive less till I can get a new car. But I hate I can't relax on my off days because I have to drive literally all day. My husband has had my back since day 1 but I don't want this extra stress on him either. I'm scared I'm going to get stuck driving them to work and miss out on my job. I don't know how to relieve this stress from my brain, I try to put it into my hobby of making cosplay costumes but by the time I'm home I don't want to do anything but sleep. I wish my brother could see the immense pressure he puts on me. He always says I'm the "smart one that'll figure it out" but I'm my own person with my own mental flaws of stress. I don't want to fight I just want my own peace.