Happy early bday to me

Lately I’ve felt like I can’t talk to you. And it sucks I don’t have anywhere to go to get some peace. I’ve been feeling unappreciated lately by almost everyone around me. And I thought with my birthday coming up, you might do something to get my mind off of it…but you didn’t. Didn’t plan a single thing. And when I tried to talk to you about it, you sounded annoyed and as if it was a chore I was asking of you.

You sigh, roll your eyes, and make me feel less than. You don’t even try to seem like you’re listening. It’s excuse after excuse and then you shut down the conversation… “can you not right now. It’s late and I don’t want to drag this out”…drag out your wife’s birthday plans?

I’m only asking for you to listen to me. I’m not asking for much. But now idk what to do anymore. We’re at a standstill. I can’t talk to my own partner…it’s sad. It’s lonesome. So what am I supposed to do? I can’t be the only one who’s trying here. I can’t be the only one who realizes this. Why am I so annoying to you? Why is every problem I bring up, you shove to the side unless YOU think it’s worth discussing? Why? Why?! I can’t even cry in front of you anymore. I’m scared of being called a crybaby or over dramatic.

For my birthday this year I just want peace. No arguing. No fights. No tears. Just peace….