Lonely birthday

It’s my birthday today and it’s really sad that the only people who actually made me feel special are my coworkers. Everyone kept wishing me happy birthday, they bought me flowers, kept asking about my plans and so forth. Yet as soon as I get home…the first thing my mom says is “So do you have your rent money that you owe me? Remember you told me last week you’d have it for me today. Also I took your dog out to poop twice this week so I think you owe me a dinner”. Thanks for the birthday wish mom. Few minutes later she tells me happy birthday-as if it even matters anymore. Sister and brother didn’t even say anything until my sister in law said it. And dad still hasn’t even told me. My bf went to get his haircut and I called him to see if he fed the dog and he sounded irritated on the phone. Although he told me happy birthday in the morning, he didn’t say anything else and didn’t even say love you when we got off the phone.

Now I’m sitting in my room alone holding back tears. I’m not asking for much but I’ve been having a hard time lately and everyone knows it. I dropped $700 to fix my car and it broke down a month later (won’t even start), so i had to quit my second job because of transportation. Now I’m short on money, and having to pay money for Ubers to work, and asking coworkers and family members for rides and giving them gas money. My dad was supposed to help me fix my car but doesn’t even bother to mess with it. And I’d like to get a “new” car but I don’t have any money for a big deposit or have money to make weekly $200+ payments. I’m feeling down and it sucks that I’m wishing I was still at work…who do you turn to when you feel like no one else cares?