Insecurities

I’m a bigger girl / bigger compared to this guy I have been seeing. He’s used to eating one meal a day and doesn’t have a big appetite. When he doesn’t feel hungry, I know I can simply just communicate that I am. Although it doesn’t feel the same when I want to eat something and he’s just coming with just because I am.

For example, I had thought we were gonna get sushi today. It’s my favorite food so I was looking forward to it. He got busy and we couldn’t catch the sunset like we’d planned and maybe he forgot we made the plan to grab sushi before on Monday. I know that’s on me for assuming he remember the plan. I could have confirmed. We ended up getting some boba and shared a snack there. I was still kind of hungry but he said he was full. So I just didn’t say anything. We came back to my place. I could have fixed myself something to eat but I just felt insecure about eating more when he’s already full.

I was thinking, I’m so silly for being upset and not communicating. Then I start to overthink. I become insecure about my size. He’s very affectionate and loving. I’ve communicated with him in the past how I felt about my body and my insecurities.